I know I have married the best woman in the world. I admire her, I love being with her, I love getting to watch her sleep and wonder what her dreams are. I love getting to share life with her and becoming more open as the days are rolling by us as I hope this avenue only gets better. I love the fact I can tell her my kinky wild side and she is open minded to its curiousness just as much as I am. I love the fact she wants to learn golf and bowling with me - just waiting on the weather. I love that I have her to share fishing with me on the pier. There are countless ways I am loving her and her ways.
Yesterday though was another day that seemed like something had her in the dumps or running through her mind or bothering her. She seemed very quiet and even though I left for about an hour out of the evening she just went onto bed. She told me she wasn't feeling well such as body aches or headaches and that's all that is hindering her. I seem to feel it is more than that though. I just have a gut feeling something is weighing very heavily on her mind. I pray constantly that what is on her mind she will soon get peace over. I pray that her body will continue to heal where she can once again have a smile on her face.
I have said it in the past few days so I will continue it today and that's simply the fact that I absolutely enjoyed walking in from work yesterday and getting to walk up behind her in the kitchen and finding my ways of caressing her and kissing her. She has no idea how much I miss her while I'm away at work. I absolutely enjoyed the pork chop dinner she served up, it was another amazing dish she cooked! I am blessed to have such an awesome wife!!
I thank you for the kind words. Really I do appreciate you saying this kind of stuff about me. I have told you over and over that I am ok. I just felt as though going to bed last night was my best option. I told you before you left that I was going to do so. I'm not like you, I'm not as strong as you are. I wish I were. I can't explain what is going on with me. If I could I would. Just believe me when I say I"m ok. I made myself a promise over a week ago and that was to stop giving my opinions and to just be. I see it has went well because you are very happy, that's what matters. I thank you again for the kind words. Love you
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