I know I have married the best woman in the world. I admire her, I love being with her, I love getting to watch her sleep and wonder what her dreams are. I love getting to share life with her and becoming more open as the days are rolling by us as I hope this avenue only gets better. I love the fact I can tell her my kinky wild side and she is open minded to its curiousness just as much as I am. I love the fact she wants to learn golf and bowling with me - just waiting on the weather. I love that I have her to share fishing with me on the pier. There are countless ways I am loving her and her ways.
Yesterday though was another day that seemed like something had her in the dumps or running through her mind or bothering her. She seemed very quiet and even though I left for about an hour out of the evening she just went onto bed. She told me she wasn't feeling well such as body aches or headaches and that's all that is hindering her. I seem to feel it is more than that though. I just have a gut feeling something is weighing very heavily on her mind. I pray constantly that what is on her mind she will soon get peace over. I pray that her body will continue to heal where she can once again have a smile on her face.
I have said it in the past few days so I will continue it today and that's simply the fact that I absolutely enjoyed walking in from work yesterday and getting to walk up behind her in the kitchen and finding my ways of caressing her and kissing her. She has no idea how much I miss her while I'm away at work. I absolutely enjoyed the pork chop dinner she served up, it was another amazing dish she cooked! I am blessed to have such an awesome wife!!
Friday, March 21, 2014
Thursday, March 20, 2014
caged
Well its day 2 in the cage and I am absolutely loving it. My wife looks at it and wonders how its not hurting me. I'm not sure how the cage isn't hurting me but its not. I did however shave for two reasons, to help with the use of the cage and also the looks. I'm not sure if the wife agrees if the looks of it is any better, I didn't ask, but I think it does. I need to ask though which one she likes the looks of better as her opinion is the only one that counts.
I'm not entirely sure she knows why I have chosen to go into a cage as we haven't discussed it to its full depth but there are so many reasons I have chosen to do so and I can't really place any reason over the others but all of them have the same thing in common - the thrill. The reasons are - total commitment to her that she controls my dick not me (what a huge rush/sensation when thought of), loyalty, cut back on masturbation to allow me to enjoy and feel the love making, I have hinted to her the teasing me part but I do get turned on and get a rush and thrill from staying caged while she masturbates in front of me to get her pleasure, makes me eat her till she gets off and not me (tease and denial fantasy/rush), fucks me from behind or on top until she gets off from nailing me so hard and telling me of all the ways I have been messing up (femdom rush/fantasy), strap a dildo on me somewhere and uses it while staying caged (another tease/denial/femdom fantasy). So there are many reasons to going into the cage - loyal commitment as well as fantasy play.
I'm not entirely sure she knows why I have chosen to go into a cage as we haven't discussed it to its full depth but there are so many reasons I have chosen to do so and I can't really place any reason over the others but all of them have the same thing in common - the thrill. The reasons are - total commitment to her that she controls my dick not me (what a huge rush/sensation when thought of), loyalty, cut back on masturbation to allow me to enjoy and feel the love making, I have hinted to her the teasing me part but I do get turned on and get a rush and thrill from staying caged while she masturbates in front of me to get her pleasure, makes me eat her till she gets off and not me (tease and denial fantasy/rush), fucks me from behind or on top until she gets off from nailing me so hard and telling me of all the ways I have been messing up (femdom rush/fantasy), strap a dildo on me somewhere and uses it while staying caged (another tease/denial/femdom fantasy). So there are many reasons to going into the cage - loyal commitment as well as fantasy play.
Better man
As I brought supper home last night I the moment I saw my wife I was put into relaxation mode. Hard to explain but I saw her and immediately I was put into a relaxed state. I crave that woman and I miss her so dearly throughout the day. She did have a rough evening of enduring personal matters and though I'm not sure if I could do anything for her other than just keep asking if there was anything I could do. I made sure I showed her my caring ways of rubbing her leg, listening to her, kissing her, and also praying over the situation. I'm not sure I could offer more help or at least I didn't know what other help I could offer other than just being there beside her and listening. I do wish though I would have showed her even more attention as my brain was on a treadmill in my own little world of thrills and that is one of my downfalls that I am trying to get away from - example: if she starts talking about a problem, concern, heartfelt issue, I try to put away anything that is a distraction from full focus on her. I don't mean reply while holding my phone or Kindle in my hand, I mean I put it away, put it in sleep mode and put it down, turn my eyes to her and listen to her. Though this is something I am changing for the better it is a work in progress. I didn't realize this was something I wasn't giving her until lately it happened to slap me in the face. I don't think she ever made any remarks of it but I do recall the thought of "what can I do to show my wife I do listen to her and how can I improve to be a better listener to her?". Well its simple take away the distractions and it takes focus. I try to run the mental thought through my mind as an alarm when she is discussing important issues "what are you doing right now while your wife is talking to keep from FULL FOCUS on her?". I have immediately stopped whatever it was and turned my head or body to her to show I am totally focusing on her. I can not wait until I become a PRO at listening to my wife - which should allow my vague memory to improve dramatically!!
Back to yesterday evening, we ate and talked of issues, then went down to the pier mainly to feed the fish and enjoy the sunset over the water but instead we ended up hooking a few minnows and casting a couple of lines out. She happen to out catch me 2 crappie to 1 catfish. I enjoyed that peaceful time I had with her. Just sitting beside her and watching a sunset while holding her hand too. The image of that beautiful face glowing with the sunset on it with those gorgeous green eyes still are embedded in my memory. I do consider myself very lucky to be with such a beautiful woman. After fishing we walked back up to the house where we spent the rest of the evening washing the dog, discussing some sad but important matters and then I showed her some images I found very interesting on the internet. I enjoyed using the computer rather than my kindle upon browsing the pictures to show her so a very huge thank you goes out to not only my beautiful wife but yet my very very smart beautiful wife!!!
Back to yesterday evening, we ate and talked of issues, then went down to the pier mainly to feed the fish and enjoy the sunset over the water but instead we ended up hooking a few minnows and casting a couple of lines out. She happen to out catch me 2 crappie to 1 catfish. I enjoyed that peaceful time I had with her. Just sitting beside her and watching a sunset while holding her hand too. The image of that beautiful face glowing with the sunset on it with those gorgeous green eyes still are embedded in my memory. I do consider myself very lucky to be with such a beautiful woman. After fishing we walked back up to the house where we spent the rest of the evening washing the dog, discussing some sad but important matters and then I showed her some images I found very interesting on the internet. I enjoyed using the computer rather than my kindle upon browsing the pictures to show her so a very huge thank you goes out to not only my beautiful wife but yet my very very smart beautiful wife!!!
Wednesday, March 19, 2014
All smiles
As I think of last night, I recall of all the ways I wanted to be helpful to my sweet wife. I get out of my car from coming in from work and there she is standing on the front porch. I had missed her for what seemed like days. Just the moment of seeing her, seeing her beauty there awaiting to greet me in her arms sent sensations all throughout me - I have finally made it to my Princess. I walked in and tried to help her finish supper and put her at ease to go relax but she is the strong Willed type that once she starts a task - she must finish it! It is a great drive to have but it has a downfall to me though. That downfall is just simply one thing. I can't just stand by watching her do all of this the work. I have this drive inside of me too and that is, I can't let my wife do work or manual labor while I am not being productive myself. Its almost against morals to me. That's my wife though and I love her. So what do I do while she cooks and I cant seem to be of help? I slip up behind her and start caressing her shoulders, I let my hands adventure her neck down her back rubbing and massaging to ease and help relax her. I kiss her neck softly. In which she enjoyed and thanked me for doing. I love helping her. I love being a blessing and helpful to her.
After a wonderful supper of chicken, mashed potatoes, her corn and lima bean mix, mac-n-cheese we relaxed on the bed and enjoyed some snuggle time watching one of our new favorite shoes Storage Wars. My sweet sweet wife even came to help me in the kitchen upon cleaning up supper dishes. I went and searched for one of my big comfy shirts for her to sleep in and laid her sleeping attire and towel out in the bathroom for her. This is something I haven't thought of in a way of helping her but it is something that sparked interest in me last night. I have warmed a towel for her in the past and I have started her bath water even but never really put much thought into laying out her sleeping attire or pampering her in that manner, but I definitely enjoyed it. I must say now that I want to do this every evening from now on. I love coming up with ways to help her, to pamper her, to ensure she knows that she is my Princess and my world.
After a wonderful supper of chicken, mashed potatoes, her corn and lima bean mix, mac-n-cheese we relaxed on the bed and enjoyed some snuggle time watching one of our new favorite shoes Storage Wars. My sweet sweet wife even came to help me in the kitchen upon cleaning up supper dishes. I went and searched for one of my big comfy shirts for her to sleep in and laid her sleeping attire and towel out in the bathroom for her. This is something I haven't thought of in a way of helping her but it is something that sparked interest in me last night. I have warmed a towel for her in the past and I have started her bath water even but never really put much thought into laying out her sleeping attire or pampering her in that manner, but I definitely enjoyed it. I must say now that I want to do this every evening from now on. I love coming up with ways to help her, to pamper her, to ensure she knows that she is my Princess and my world.
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