Better man

    As I brought supper home last night I the moment I saw my wife I was put into relaxation mode.  Hard to explain but I saw her and immediately I was put into a relaxed state.  I crave that woman and I miss her so dearly throughout the day.  She did have a rough evening of enduring personal matters and though I'm not sure if I could do anything for her other than just keep asking if there was anything I could do.  I made sure I showed her my caring ways of rubbing her leg, listening to her, kissing her, and also praying over the situation.  I'm not sure I could offer more help or at least I didn't know what other help I could offer other than just being there beside her and listening.  I do wish though I would have showed her even more attention as my brain was on a treadmill in my own little world of thrills and that is one of my downfalls that I am trying to get away from - example: if she starts talking about a problem, concern, heartfelt issue, I try to put away anything that is a distraction from full focus on her.  I don't mean reply while holding my phone or Kindle in my hand, I mean I put it away, put it in sleep mode and put it down, turn my eyes to her and listen to her.  Though this is something I am changing for the better it is a work in progress.  I didn't realize this was something I wasn't giving her until lately it happened to slap me in the face.  I don't think she ever made any remarks of it but I do recall the thought of "what can I do to show my wife I do listen to her and how can I improve to be a better listener to her?".  Well its simple take away the distractions and it takes focus.  I try to run the mental thought through my mind as an alarm when she is discussing important issues "what are you doing right now while your wife is talking to keep from FULL FOCUS on her?".  I have immediately stopped whatever it was and turned my head or body to her to show I am totally focusing on her.   I can not wait until I become a PRO at listening to my wife - which should allow my vague memory to improve dramatically!! 

    Back to yesterday evening, we ate and talked of issues, then went down to the pier mainly to feed the fish and enjoy the sunset over the water but instead we ended up hooking a few minnows and casting a couple of lines out.  She happen to out catch me 2 crappie to 1 catfish.  I enjoyed that peaceful time I had with her.  Just sitting beside her and watching a sunset while holding her hand too.  The image of that beautiful face glowing with the sunset on it with those gorgeous green eyes still are embedded in my memory.  I do consider myself very lucky to be with such a beautiful woman.  After fishing we walked back up to the house where we spent the rest of the evening washing the dog, discussing some sad but important matters and then I showed her some images I found very interesting on the internet.  I enjoyed using the computer rather than my kindle upon browsing the pictures to show her so a very huge thank you goes out to not only my beautiful wife but yet my very very smart beautiful wife!!!